"From then to now"

As I have had a wonderful  time to sit and enjoy the presence  of my bio-family.  My mother, sisters, brother and niece. I can't  help but think back to when  I was living with my adopted family  and made the request  to meet my biological  mother.  I remember  the response  I received  as well.  It was not how or what I expected  it to be.  Looking back at the time it really hurt me.  My adopted  mothers response  was " Have I not been good enough" She really felt offended. (In which she shouldn't  have there was no relationship  between us. Nor any acts of love ever shown).  It was not my intentions to make her feel that way.  So out of respect  for her feelings I told her never-mind and that I didn't  want to meet my biological  mother. That was a lie.  I still did want to meet her.  Luckily  I was able to.  Once I turned 18 my mother consented  to meeting me.  The journey  in the beginning  of our reunification  season was hard.  It was difficult to attach myself and to know what to expect  and how to feel.  Over the course  of 3 years which included tears, frustration, anger, resentment  and I myself believe  a bit of guilt we have been able to grow and to have a respect  for one another.  I love my mother and am blessed  to have her in my life.  This journey  have been one hell of a ride.  However  sitting  where I am now.  I wouldn't  change  it for the world.





There is a special  love for my mother that she may never understand. A love that  in the beginning  I didn't  have and wasn't  sure if I would ever have.  I am proud  of who that she is her love, her strength  and her ability to inspire others.

Family  is everything  and something special whether  biological  or not but having your biological family is something  worth a thousand  words.

From then to not know who or what a mother was to having my biological  mother and others mother figures all I can say is that it's  been a ride worth staying on.

My children having  the ability  to know  there family means so much to me and the truth is had I not had the childhood  I've had,  I honestly  would not appreciate  my biological  mother or any other mother figure neither the relationships that I have formed with my biological family and non- biological family.

All those who want to know and a relationship  with your biological  family know that its possible. It's hard but it's worth it. It something special. If you can build with  your biological  family its something you will never regret.  Possibly  in the beginning but once you get past that part the possibilities for your family and reunification  are endless.